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稍 Free Hardcover Read [ From a Certain Point of View (Star Wars) ] ꕓ ePUB Author John Jackson Miller 렒 稍 Free Hardcover Read [ From a Certain Point of View (Star Wars) ] ꕓ ePUB Author John Jackson Miller 렒 MASTER AND APPRENTICE Claudia Gray Some believe the desert to be barren This proves only that they do not know the desert Deep within the dunes dwell small insects that weave nets to trap one another, and burrowing snakes with scales the color of stones so that no hunter can find them Seeds and spores from long dead plants lie dormant in the warmth, waiting for the rainfall that comes once a year, or decade, or century, when they will burst into verdant life as brief as it is glorious The heat of the suns sinks into the grains of sand until they glow, containing all the energy and possibility to become glass the color of jewels All of these sing individual notes in the one great song of the Whills No place is barren of the Force, and they who are one with the Force can always find the possibility of life Awareness precedes consciousness The warmth is luxuriated in and drawn upon before the mind is cognizant of doing so Next comes the illusion of linear time Only then does a sense of individuality arise, a remembrance of what was and what is, a knowledge of ones self as separate from the Force It provides a vantage point for experiencing the physical world in its complexity and ecstasy, but the pain of that separation is endurable only because unity will come again, and soon That fracture from the all, that memory of temporal existence, is most easily summed up with the word the fracture was once called by The name Qui Gon The name is spoken by another Qui Gon has been summoned He draws upon his memories of himself and takes shape, reassembling the form he last had in life It seems to him that he feels flesh wrap around bones, hair and skin over flesh, robes over skinand then, as naturally to him as though he had done so yesterday, he pulls down the hood of his Jedi cloak and looks upon his Padawan Obi Wan It is worth the travail of individual existence just to say that name again So he says the other name, too Ben Obi Wan Kenobis hair has turned white Lines have etched their traces along his forehead, around his blue eyes He wears Jedi robes so worn and ragged as to be indistinguishable from the garb of the impoverished hermit he pretends to be Most would walk past this man without a second glance Yet while Qui Gon perceives the physical realities of Obi Wans appearance, he is not limited to human sight any longer He also sees the confident general of the Clone Wars, the strong young Padawan who followed his master into battle, even the rebellious little boy at the Temple that no Master was in any hurry to train They are all equally part of Obi Wan, each stage of his existence vivid in this moment You are afraid, Qui Gon says He knows why the events taking place around them are clearer to him than they are to Obi Wan You seek your center You need balance The living find it difficult not to tell the dead that which they already know Obi Wan doesnt even try There may be Imperial stormtroopers waiting for Luke at the Lars farm If so Then you will rescue him Qui Gon smiles Or he may rescue himself Or the sister will find the brother instead Obi Wan cannot be so easily comforted Or he could be killed Cut down while still hardly than a boy To Qui Gon, all human lives now seem impossibly brief Years are irrelevant It is journeys through the Force that matter Some must struggle for that knowledge through many decades others are very nearly born with it Most never begin the journey at all, no matter how long they live But Luke Skywalker Luke has a great journey yet to go, Qui Gon says It does not end here Youve seen this Qui Gon nods This relieves Obi Wan than it should, because he cannot guess the shape that journey will take Their surroundings in the physical world become clearerthe endless dunes of Tatooine stretching out in every direction, a smoldering sandcrawler a hulk behind them, a dozen tiny Jawas dead The memory of their fear and helplessness lances Qui Gons consciousness, as does the meaninglessness of their deaths Although Obi Wan has been tending to the bodies, for the moment the Jawas are seen to only by two droids The droids comfort Qui Gon somewhat, because they are familiar the Force has even seen fit to bring these two back to the place where it all began Time is a circle The beginning is the end Obi Wan murmurs, Bail Organa sent Leia herself to summon me When I saw hersaw Padm in her so strongly, and even a little of Anakin, tooI knew my exile was nearly at an end Would you believe I find it difficult to let it go Youve adapted Youve had to No wonder that the desert feels like home to you now, or that being a Jedi Knight has become foreign But that can change, and faster than you might dream possible It will in fact be almost instantaneous, a transformation begun and completed the first time immediate danger beckons again Qui Gon looks forward to witnessing it Ive waited for this day for a very long time, Obi Wan says So long it feels as though Ive waited for it my entire life To have it endangerednow, just as the great work beginsso many factors are in play The future is difficult to know, even so than before Do you truly think your work has only just begun, my Padawan They have begun using that title between them again, in recognition of how much Obi Wan has yet to learn It is strange, still, to think of death as only the beginning of wisdom Obi Wan considers There were other great endeavors Other challenges But the Clone Wars were long ago For nearly two decades, I have been little than a shadow waiting to become a Jedi Knight again Qui Gon shakes his head Already his physical self feels natural enough to him that he can express thought and emotion through gestures Battles and wars arent the measure of a Jedi Anyone can fight, given a weapon and an enemy Anyone can use a lightsaber, given due training or even good luck But to stand and waitto have so much patience and fortitudethat, Obi Wan, is a greater achievement than you can know Few could have accomplished it Fewer still could have done so without turning to darkness Sometimes, when Qui Gon considers it, he is awed by his students steadfastness Every person Obi Wan ever truly lovedAnakin, Satine, Padm, and Qui Gon himselfcame to a terrible end Three of them died before his eyes the other fell to a fate so bleak that death wouldve been a gift The Jedi Order that provided the entire framework for Obi Wans life was consumed by betrayal and slaughter Every step of this long, unfulfilling journey is one Obi Wan had to take alone and yet he never faltered As the rest of the galaxy burned, his path remained true It is the kind of victory that most people never recognize and yet the bedrock all goodness is built upon Even Obi Wan doesnt see it You see me in a kinder light than most would, old friend I owe you that After all, Im the one who failed you Failed me They have never spoken of this, not once in all Qui Gons journeys into the mortal realm to commune with him This is primarily because Qui Gon thought his mistakes so wretched, so obvious, that Obi Wan had wanted to spare him any discussion of it Yet here, too, he has failed to do his Padawan justice You werent ready to be a Jedi Master, Qui Gon admits You hadnt even been knighted when I forced you to promise to train Anakin Teaching a student so powerful, so old, so unused to our ways that mightve been beyond the reach of the greatest of us To lay that burden at your feet when you were hardly than a boy Anakin became a Jedi Knight, Obi Wan interjects, a thread of steel in his voice He served valiantly in the Clone Wars His fall to darkness was his choice than anyone elses failure Yes, I bear some responsibilityand perhaps you do, toobut Anakin had the training and the wisdom to choose a better path He did not All true None of it any absolution for Qui Gons own mistakes But it is Obi Wan who needs guidance now These things can be discussed another time, when theyre beyond crude human language Soonvery soon. From a Certain Point of View (Star Wars)


    • From a Certain Point of View (Star Wars)
    • 1.3
    • 55
    • Hardcover
    • 496 pages
    • B06XZ8WL34
    • John Jackson Miller
    • English
    • 17 April 2016

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